Beatriz F. Fernandez

Father Abelard, they call me—father, who shall never be one again. Even this reminder cannot break me, though my love for you was torn from my breast as violently as my manhood from my flesh. When I met you, you were but a girl, yet in your mind what worlds burned! Your eyes—my incandescent girl, your eyes glowed with mysteries I could not fathom— even now you remain opaque to me, who knew you best of all men. As your teacher, I fanned those flames into a bonfire—as your lover, I was consumed by it. Together, you and I, we defied them— we survived. Summer dragonflies bereft of wings, we will not fly again— the tidal waves that stormed between us seem but surface swells to me now. The dry husk my soul represents consoles itself with the promise of redemption in another realm. I entreat you, Heloise, to embrace likewise this redoubled peace, though in your words I read a spirit unresigned to this new life. Never doubt that I remember you—never— you rule forever an enclosed parcel of my mind, as a queen over a once fertile land that now lies fallow.
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Beatriz F. Fernandez is the author of The Ocean Between Us (Backbone Press, 2017) and Shining from a Different Firmament (Finishing Line Press, 2015) which she presented at the Miami Book Fair International. She has read her poetry on WLRN, South Florida’s NPR news station and was the grand prize winner of the 2nd annual Writer’s Digest Poetry Award. Her poems have appeared in Boston Literary Magazine, Falling Star Magazine, Label Me Latina/o, Thirty West Publishing House, Words Dance, and Writer’s Digest, among others. Beatriz has been nominated for three Pushcart Prizes as well as Best of the Net. Twitter: @nebula61.